crazy bliss

my life is crazy. my life is bliss.

i am so intrigued by the way things have turned out. i am happier than i could have ever imagined for myself, yet it all looks so different. for that, i believe that i am finally grateful. i am grateful for the hardships and downfalls that have shaped me into who i am. looking back, i realize that i wouldn't be me.

it's maddening that i did not document my time of wedding planning and engagement bliss. it was truly the most joyful/stressful experience of my life! i was engaged on october 1, 2011 and was married on march 3, 2012. five short months of craziness. my heart is still so full when i look back on all of the parties, showers, and time spent with my friends and family. i wouldn't change a single thing. watching that many of your closest loved ones come together to celebrate you is quite humbling. i know i speak for jett and myself when i say that we have never felt so loved and adored (and we like feeling loved and adored).

the past six months have flown by and yet it feels like we were frolicking around disney world on our honeymoon just last week. most of our time has been spent learning how to live with one another and grow into being married. becoming jett's wife has been my favorite identity so far, and i have grown more than i ever intended to grow (that's a good thing). we were designed for one another; i have never been so convinced of any one thing. where i can be crazy, he can be lazy, and that has allowed us to drift into a happy medium on so many things. i feel like i stand taller next to my man. we have both grown busy and tired with our jobs, but we have been able to play a lot since we have become mr. and mrs. we took a camping trip to float the buffalo river, we played and danced at wakarusa on mulberry mountain, we drove overnight to spend a couple of days at the beach with jett's family, we took a road trip to dallas to see coldplay, we floated the spring river with a group of our rowdiest friends, and now we are in a holding pattern because...

i am anxiously awaiting the arrival of my first nephew, luca vincent! he will be a doll and i will squeeze his cheeks until everyone asks me to please quit touching the baby. this is going to be such a lovely way to be around babies without having my own. that is (planned to be) some time away for us. plus, watching my sister as she has grown into a mother has been such a great experience. i am so impressed by her (she's growing and carrying a HUMAN, for the love of God) and i know that she will be so strong during her labor and delivery process. she has asked me to be in the room with her, and as long as the hospital doesn't kick me out i will be able to witness the whole thing firsthand. who knows, it may turn me off to motherhood altogether. hopefully i will be disciplined enough to write something about it on here.

speaking of that, i am really wanting to stay on track with posts. i think it's more so i can just keep up with my life. without social media, i honestly wouldn't even remember most things that i do. as sad as that is, i might as well write something more along the lines of a journal until i can force my hand to pick up a pen and find my pages.

here's to being the only one reading my blog!